Honey and Clover

The title speaks of the anime I'm currently watching and how it has helped me analyze a few more things. I can relate so much to this anime. I love it because it's slice of life and it's being realistic in a lot of ways.

Something happened lately that took me back to some things in the past again and made me think about it. And how I kept on asking what God wants to show me then but I just can't help saying, "Why Lord?" during those times. Last Wednesday, in our Bible Study at church, the pastor also talked about it and it relieved me to think that I was all "Why" then and I found the answer after some really long journey of struggles. The pastor is right, we should be more focused on "What Lord?" than "Why".

While laying down and thinking about things, I realized there are people I run to whenever I feel down and they make me feel better or bad but it has always been helpful. And it dawned on me that God surrounded me these people to show that I am weak and foolish at times and they're there to help and guide me through. So I'm very thankful.

Well, like Honey and Clover, my life is a drama but it's a good one. And I know that I'll continue to grow and become better in time. The journey is long and I wonder how far I can go without looking back. XD

Jesus, You Are Amazing

Today, I did something out of a whim again. I don't know but I did pray for it. I am having such a nice day and I kept telling myself not to do something reckless just because you are feeling good or happy. I had a conviction this morning to call a friend who I feel is drifting far away from me. I was torn between leaving him be and giving him space but that stubborn part of me tells me that I need to reach out somehow.

He's really one of those people I treasure a lot and although I felt the walls getting higher between us due to some reasons, I can't imagine just letting the friendship become colder. Well, I might have done something, and it's not time to discuss that but sometimes I just remember how close we were and how I used to tell him everyday what has been in store for me. And I've been really inspired by him, too. I thank God for that.

Anyways, God works amazingly. I praise him today not because I think I did something out of line again but because he shows me things that are puzzling, mysterious, inspiring and he comforts me all the time! I can't believe how things work together for good everytime.

Ah, hopefully, I'm not interrupting something good in my friend's life but I know, God has a plan and its a perfect plan. I hope things work out for him and he gets back to his normal self. I also sent him this video to remind him that God is awesome. Whoever reads this, may you be inspired.

Happy Day

I decided to make a different approach in this blog and bring my weirdness in here. Thank God for the past few days, I've been feeling a lot better and with my friends and loved ones, the storm may finally come to an end (I love you, Jesus).

To start with, I am a fan of j-pop. Yes, j-pop. Those cute-sy girls singing in cute-sy voices. I've been digging through old songs of Morning Musume and I found this. Hopefully, you readers will enjoy it as much as I do:



I was listening to this and I feel like....

God's Will

I let 5 months pass before updating this blog again. But the circumstances lately just remind me to write something new before this becomes completely forgotten.

I've been reminded of my previous blog and domain. There's this one post there that makes me ask myself, "how is my heart lately?" To be honest, I have been feeling sad for almost half a year already but God has been really, really good to me and He gives me reason to be happy everytime. I've been praying and asking God for His will for these past months and for some reason I can not see them clearly and didn't really understand what He was trying to tell me. Thanks to my friends in church and in other places that they support me to help me understand some things and offer words of wisdom and comfort. And then, for the past few days, I got sick and everything seemed to become clear to me. God has answered me. (I got some time to meditate ;))

I remember RJ's blog post (he's a friend from church who's now working in Singapore) about his prayer that also took some time for him to see what God has been telling him. It made me realize one thing today. God makes ways for us to understand Him and to know Him more. Now, I feel what RJ must have felt that day. and I thank God for setting me free and loving me always. And I hope He will continue to hold my hand as I walk the path of becoming more like Him everyday.

I am Back to Writing

So I decided to update and write another entry. I am back to writing. Yay!

Lately, I accepted an article writing job from a friend. I'll be paid for every article I write. Not really that high paying job but it will help. Only problem I have is, I'm busy these past few days/weeks due to the coming activity in church. I have been there almost every night for practice. I'll be joining the dancing ministry for a dance this Friday, Youthnight with a theme: Expelled. There's one more good thing about that. I'll be getting a free t-shirt with the theme print on it. :D God is so awesome as always.

Aside from article writing, all I've ever done lately is write test cases. Not a very fun task. But it's better than reading articles about QA or watching Drupal videos. This way I learn and I use my brain and my hands.

As for updates, I'm going back to Manila in two weeks for another Drupal meet-up. My client from Chicago will be coming over to visit us. He will be giving some lectures in the meet-up, too. More good things about this event: I will be able to have bonding with teammates from Luzon and I'll be able to meet my sisters again. :D Speaking of the meeting with my sisters, my youngest sister wants to have my Dell laptop since she wants to use it for work. She recently found a new job and she's still trying to adjust. I'm happy for her. Hope she'll grow more where she's planted this time.

Now for the downside of my trip. My return flight is scheduled at around 6pm, which means I can't make it to church on time for the Sunday night service. :( However, I still hope that I will still be able to have fellowship with my sisters and brothers when I arrive. :D

New Post, New Start, New Year

It's been so long!!! I haven't posted for more than a year and it's quite sad that I left this blog un-maintained. Anyway, new year, a new start over. I am really grateful I got this far and for the past years, I've learned a lot of things, get to know people, get to know myself and been closer to God. Yes, I'm back to my first love. :D

Last year, I have met some wonderful people from the anime forum I joined and it was like a turning point. I've learned a lot from them and have been happier since, in expense of late nights chat and browsing. One of the best things though, is I was able to share a part of me with them and my faith, too. And for the most part, I've started dreaming again. xD

Its funny but God has different ways of making people realize how much He loves them and I know that he has a very big mission for me out there and a purpose as to why I met these people I know now. I am really looking forward to more changes, adventure and growth. I love, Jesus. Seriously. :D

Interesting Quote

"I wish I could have five lives! Then I could have been born in five different towns, and eaten five lifetime's worth of food, and had five different careers, and...fallen in love with the same person, five times." ~Inoue Orihime

Yeah.. I'm a big fan of Bleach, I've watch it over and over again and never get tired of it. I love the storyline, the characters, the scenes, everything about it except fillers. I actually am not fond of Inoue Orihime's character but episode 141 sure gave her a big break. That was the first thing I liked about her. I think she's really sweet.

The first paragraph was uttered by Inoue during the time when she said goodbye to Ichigo in episode 141. She was given a chance to say her farewell to only one person but not let him/her realize what she's doing. She chose Ichigo instead of Tatsuki (I'm not sure if this is her name) despite that she is her best fiend. I was aware that she has some feelings for Ichigo but I never realized it was that serious really... Until she said those words.

In some ways, I like the line because I can relate to it. I really wanted to be born more than once and have few different careers. I also wanted to be an astronaut, a doctor, a detective and I wanted to be an artist, too. Then, I could be born in different countries and learn to speak more than 5 languages. And if I could chose, I would like to fall in love with the same person over and over again. Sounds cheesy but yeah... sometimes, I really wish for these things. Because you know, we only live once so they say we have to live to the fullest and make the most out of life. I believe that, too. It's just that, maybe it's nice if you could be different from what you are now. Well, just my thoughts. :D